October 8, 2024

It's been a long ass time since I've been here. Honestly I forgot all out this blog, but I need to restart blogging my life. I'm not even sure where to start because so much shit has happened but I'll give the short version and then go from there. As Hurricane Milton brews in the gulf heading towards the west side of Florida, definitely leaving his mark across the entire state. My house is currently under a hurricane warning and I'm on the opposite side of landfall. Today's daily dose of motivation: Me: hey, do you want Chicken Salad Chick Him: that's fine, get what you want. He gets home and AFTER I said "yay doordash is on the way" He IMMEDIATELY proceeds to check the account and states---wow that's an expensive lunch. It's like making me feel guilty for ordering out, when he already knew the amount. I just can't do this. I don't want to spend the rest of my life angry and I have a LOT of anger towards him. He has a type: black hair and spanish. For this reason alone, I refuse to ever dye my hair black. He doesn't listen to anything I say, ever. I have no opinion on anything. Yesterday, I was told I was allergic to work. Please don't let my brain start remembering. Because like, literally, WHAT THE FUCK I just have to keep remembering the goals I have personally set for myself. Education, Job,.... What I want: PEACE and QUIET. It's simple. The freedom to not be judged if I smoke weed, or how often. The freedom to order doordash and not be made to feel guilty. Not picking up after another grown adult. There's more, because lord knows I have 30 fucking years worth of reasons. Till next time.It's been a long ass time since I've been here. Honestly I forgot all out this blog, but I need to restart blogging my life.